Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Number 8: 3,000 Words, Plus A Few Of My Own

I am thankful for many things but will leave the introspective Thanksgiving blogging to others. Tomorrow is that special day of the year when I watch a Detroit Lions game from start to finish and love every minute of it. Happy Thanksgiving.


Support the economy, and Kanye's ego, and buy this album. I couldn't decide whether it was cooler to love this album or hate it for not being like Kanye's previous material, so I just decided to be real into it. I'm also very happy that I can now say I was a part of his victory over Guns N' Roses in first week sales. A loss for Axl Rose is a victory for society's collective ear. Thanks Yeezy.


This is Floyd. He is a vagabond. He is my friend. We communicate semi-frequently by email. I have been working on writing the story of our relationship and time together. I hope to share it soon. A woman took this picture of him playing guitar outside of a shop in North Carolina and he sent it to me today. I thought it was phenomenal. Perhaps you agree.


Here's to tryptophan naps and floating cartoon characters,

Steven

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Number 7: A Letter

Dear Girls Who Wear UGG Boots, Particularly With Shorts,

I hope you know that it is with sincere concern and humility that I write to you. I am not a fashion expert. In fact, I am rather bad at dressing myself in things that are either seasonally appropriate or regionally fashionable. I am, however, hopelessly opinionated and so I felt it necessary to begin a dialogue, albeit one-sided, about this issue.

I think that your shorts defeat the purpose of your boots.

With all due respect and brotherly love,
Steven Hale

PS - I should note that I have not been to Alaska. If the Inuit people are not only sending us Vice Presidential candidates, but also setting fashion trends then I concede the above point and will probably go buy some UGG boots.

PPS - I should also note that my main problem with this trend is that if UGG boots are cool then I will probably have to go buy some as I continue in the pursuit of having friends.

PPPS - I realize that UGG boots have actually been out and in for sometime now. Consider this letter as not only a current statement of my opinion on them, but also a retroactive one.

Friday, November 7, 2008

Number 6: Looking for Scissors in the Silverware Drawer

I heard that about four people read these and to you I am sorry that it has been a while. I have had this illness called politics for a while now. It's symptoms are yelling at your TV, thinking you're right, and looking for hope in the wrong place. I feel better now though.

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I have this friend who has been telling me every time I see him for several weeks now that God thinks I'm awesome. Once I accept the possibility that God uses terms like 'awesome' it blows my mind. I never know how to respond except with a weak "God thinks you're awesome too". Hearing that just wrecks me for some reason and I guess part of me wants to just lighten the mood rather than deal with the weight of that statement.

I think its because most of the time I figure God thinks I'm awful.

The same friend told me that some smart people somewhere figured out that most people view themselves the way they think the most important person in their life views them. And so I guess if you walk around doubting God's love for you it will make it difficult to love yourself.

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You know the phrase "looking for love in all the wrong places"? It ends up in every other terrible country song.

I was thinking about looking for things in the wrong places the other day and I realized that there are two reasons why I look for things in the wrong place.

1. I don't know where said 'things' come from.
2. I have found said 'things' in the wrong place before.

This happens in my house all the time. I imagine that in your parents house, like mine, things have a certain place and you can usually count on them being there. However, in my house, maybe like yours, things have a certain place and you can usually count on them not being there. Several times a day I find myself looking for things in my house. A lot of times the scenario goes something like this; I know we have duct tape. I don't know where the duct tape belongs. I must check everywhere in the house. At other times the scenario goes a bit differently. Perhaps more like this; I know we have scissors. On Tuesday they were in the silverware drawer. I don't know if that is where they belong, but I'll check their first. Aha! The scissors are in the silverware drawer. I will put them back where I found them. The scissors now belong in the silverware drawer.

And the thing is scissors sort of resemble silverware. So it doesn't seem that weird.

I think that I tend to look for love, hope, peace, satisfaction, and fulfillment in the wrong place. Sometimes I think it is because I have forgotten where these things come from. So, naturally, I go looking for them throughout my day and often go to bed feeling empty. Other times I think that I go looking for these things in the places where I feel I have found them before. And the problem is that I may find them again, and they may resemble the love, hope, peace, satisfaction, and fulfillment that I desire, but until I acknowledge where they come from, where they belong, I don't think I will go to bed full.

I think that I doubt God's love sometimes because of this. I think that even if I feel love from my girlfriend, my friends, and my parents, I question it because I often fail to acknoweldge the source of love itself.

I think that when I don't understand that God does loves me I go looking for love and fulfillment somewhere else. And because I do not find in its fullest form I begin to view myself as unlovable and worthless.

God does love you.

The love you find in your life comes from and belongs to him.

The scissors do not belong in the silverware drawer.